Rigors he endured, and rigors he inflicted on others.
It’s a mixed process and we’re all in it. It is impossible to get through life without experiencing both sides of this coin.
And trying to is a colossal waste of time.
So self actualization is not easy. Whether it’s meant to be or not is difficult to say. At this stage in human evolution, it isn’t.
And this is especially true when you are trying to be yourself and live a life of your own making.